Competition

Well...... my first event went pretty well. Although, I fell out of a spin. I didn't actually "fall" but I didn't stay in the spin. I competed against the books which is actually a lot harder than competing against other people. For my next event it was my program, "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy," now this one I had already started getting anxious even before I went on the ice. So therefore I psyched myself out and didn't do as well. But because I was anxious and I was already convinced I wasn't going to do well, I didn't do as well. Now I feel that I have to punish myself because I should have done better, especially when I have nailed it so many times before. It's upsetting when this happens because I wanted it to be perfect and it wasn't.
My body image is horrible and looking at the pictures that I just posted on facebook makes me upset and it makes me more anxious.

But enough complaining.... I did have fun today and that's what counts! I can't wait to compete again on April 16th :)

Skating Show/Competition

This skating season went by so fast!! Last night I had my show. I skated in 3 programs. I thought I did pretty good. It has been such a busy week. I was preparing all week for the show and competition this weekend. After rewatching my solo program last night, even though I didn't land one of my jumps on one foot, I still think I didn't do well. Although, others think differently. They all say I did really well. I have 2 more chances to nail my program like I have done in the past few weeks. It's extremely frustrating when I nail my program numerous times throughout the week and that didn't happen last night. I wasn't even nervous, so I'm not sure what happened.
I am giving myself 2 more chances to nail the program, today and in a few weeks at another competition. I worked so hard on this program and I will be upset if I don't nail it. I have my first event at the competition at 9:40 so I have to get going since I have to be there an hour before I compete and it takes me over an hour to get there.
I will post later on how I did at the competition today!!

Spring Break is not soon enough!

I am soooo ready for break! I need next week to do absolutely no school work whatsoever. It will be so nice when I can just wake up and not have to go up to school. I will just go skating and go to work. Although, i'm not sure what I will do with myself at night with no homework. I'll probably be bored out of my mind and walk around my house or go on a cleaning frenzy in my room. I don't really have too much to say tonight.. my mind is going in all directions right now. I'm doing homework for 4 different classes at the same time and I have so many other things on my mind besides school.
If I think about anything I want to write later, I will write more.

Night All!

Confused

I thought that day light savings time happened when it gets to be midnight, but none of my clocks changed. Does anyone know when day light savings time actually happens? I have never been up this late to find out.

allergies=not fun!

I hate allergies soooo much! I am sitting here babysitting and well 1. i'm allergic to the dog, which doesn't help me much and 2. i'm tired. okay that's it for now... i just had to get that out :)

BTW.. don't forget it's day light savings day tonight :(  push the clocks ahead an hour

First Lesson

I taught my first lesson today!!! I taught frequency distribution in a 2nd grade class. I was pretty nervous since it was my first time but everything ended up going really well! After the students went to lunch I sat down with the teacher and she asked me to reflect on what I thought went well and what I need to work on. I had a hard time thinking about things that went well. That is always hard for me to do. The one thing that I was proud of was that I was able to manage the class through 90% of the lesson! I went a little over on time and began to lose the students, so time is something I definitely need to work on for next time. I am ready to teach my next lesson now! 

I had such a cute outfit today to teach. I had on a 3-quarter length suit jacket that tied in the front with a white blouse and a plaid skirt that had ruffles.

I have so much homework to do tonight but hopefully i'll be able to come back on later and write more. If not, have a great night!!

Up Early and a Busy Day Ahead

I can't believe how early I woke up today, 6:30am, and I didn't even have to be up until 8:30. I was actually able to get some homework done and I still have a few things left to do. I have a pretty busy day today. I am reading a really good book for school it's One Child by Torey Hayden. I am only allowed to read up to Chapter 4 and I hated putting the book down. I really wanted to keep reading it.
I have my skating lesson this morning. I am in training now for the next 3 weeks to prepare for a show and competition. I just need to remember to bring in water with me to the rink today, I always forget to. This is going to be the hardest program that I have ever done before! 5 jumps, 3 are combination jumps and 2 different spins and one of those spins has to be a change foot spin. My sit-spin makes me so dizzy, I think it makes everyone dizzy. I spin so many times basically sitting low to the ice and then I have to quickly get up and spin out of it. It's crazy but it's my favorite spin :) !!! It took me like 3-4 weeks to get this spin then finally 2 weeks ago it clicked!
Then I have school, only two classes but they are both 1 hr and 15 min long. I have a group meeting afterwards to do an assignment for the book I am reading. Hopefully that won't last too long but it will give me something to do before skating tonight at 5:30. I love my classes this semester, they are just really challenging though! I got an A- on my PowerPoint/Handout project!! I was so excited but I could have had an A if I added pictures to my PowerPoint. If I would have known that I would have put them in, we never got a rubric for this project. So I was kind of frustrated about the visuals part. I'm hoping this project brings my grade up in this class though. Because of one test my overall grade went down to an 86 and I want a higher grade, so hopefully this project helped bring that up!
I'm off to do some more homework before I leave in a half hour!

School Parking

My school doesn't have enough parking as it is and yesterday we had a flood on campus where our PE Center is and the Ice Arena are. So going to school today I was going to be early for my class but instead nope I was 5 minutes late. It took me 20/25 minutes to find a parking spot and it took me a few min to park my car because the space was so tight. I absolutely hate being late! I like being to class 10-15 minutes early. I get very anxious when I am running tight for time. Then when I get into the class and we had to take a "What do you know (not graded quiz)" and I couldn't remember anything from the reading or notes that I took. I felt so stupid. I can't remember anything anymore, I have to write everything down and even then I sometimes forget that I write it down. I would like my brain that is good at memorizing things back. I can memorize skating program but that's because I drill it all the time but school stuff, forget it. But it doesn't help that I don't understand the material either.
I keep thinking to myself that maybe I am not cut out for a teacher because I feel that I'm not smart because I don't understand things. I love kids and I want to teach but maybe I'm not smart enough. I have been so frustrated lately.

Skating

So excited to be back to my normal skating week. Last week through me off so badly. I hated not skating as much as I normally do. I'm back in action and I'm ready to finish my program today! I am doing "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy" for my program. My costume came and its adorable.. a picture is to come I just don't have time to upload one now because I have to leave in a minute to go to my skating lesson. The costume is gold with tons of glitter :)
I also have school today and an exam. I'm a bit nervous for the exam. I have been having a tough time remembering what I read but I have been studying and will study more before the exam. I just hope I do as well as I would like to.
Off to Skating and school and allergy shots.
More later :)

Delay Opening

Woke up this morning to my mom coming in my room to tell me I had a delayed opening. I am so glad! I definitely needed to just go back to sleep. Although, I wasn't actually able to go back to sleep, there is still time. I had a presentation to do this morning but I don't have that class, so I guess I will be presenting on Wednesday instead. This is actually a presentation i'm not anxious about because it is in small groups. When I present in front of my entire class I get really anxious and nervous. So I don't have class now until 11 but that's if we end up having school because up north they are getting a wintery mix and there is lots of ice. I could always use another day off, especially since I still have homework to do.
I have work this afternoon and hopefully I will get my lesson plan back today since I teach for the first time on Friday and have more things to do to prepare for it. This lesson should be fun, it's definitely not boring that's for sure. Its for a 2nd grade class and I'm teaching about Frequency distribution. I really want my lesson to go perfect this Friday.
Off to do somethings around the house for a bit.... put dishes away (no fun) then maybe go back to bed for a bit.

A Blast

I had such a great time babysitting tonight. There were 5 kids and they all were awesome! We had a dance party, I watched a dance recital, watched part of a movie, started a puzzle, and more! All the kids were awesome and I even got them all to bed and when the parents got home they were like "you're awesome" lol.
I learned that sharks have no bones today, they have cartilage, that is what one of the girls told me. I can't wait to babysit for all of them again. The money doesn't even matter to me because I love kids, its just an added plus :) I just got home and I'm beginning to get a little sleepy so I'm going to get in my pj's and head to bed.
Have a good night!!

Long Day

Was up for three hours last night and when I finally fell back asleep at like 3ish I was up at 6:45 to get ready to go skating. I was out of the house by 7:35 and on the ice at 8:15. It was a good hour on the ice, I finally mastered my sit-spin! I have been working on it for so long, well, 3 months or so. I can't wait for the show in March and my competition to do my program. It is a lot of fun but the hardest routine I have ever done before.
After skating, I went to Sylvan to get help with school work. This semester has been so hard for me. I've gone to Sylvan so many times before and I know it helps. We are going to start working on bring my skill levels up next week to where they should be.
I am off to go babysitting in a little while. Five hours, five kiddos, not too bad. It will be fun since the kids are older than the ages I normally sit for and the money is good too. Luckily once they go to bed, if the parents decide to have them go to bed while i'm there I will be able to get homework done, if not tomorrow I will be in my room all day doing homework just to get it done.
Off to get things ready to leave!

holy homework

I would love to have a night that was homework free. It is like the never ending homework, I don't ever think there is a night where I actually finish it all. On the plus side, I get to teach my first lesson at my practicum next Friday! I am very excited and I just got my first approval to teach it from my cooperating teacher! I still have homework to do tonight but I have to stay up until my sister gets home so I might as well do it.

I'm still in a little pain, my infection came back. It's the third time I have gotten it in 4 months, but this time I have it in more than one spot. It is soooo frustrating because my whole schedule gets thrown off because I end up missing school, work, and skating because of the pain. It is a good excuse to miss classes/work especially because this infection could go into my blood stream if I'm not careful so luckily I caught it early this time! I feel that I am very lucky since it hasn't landed me in the hospital and I have caught it early most times.

I am watching Everybody loves Raymond, it is a pretty funny show. I rarely even watch it, I just like it for the noise lol. I don't like quiet. I am waiting for my sister to get home, but that won't be until like 10 or 10:30 and my parents and youngest sister are at a Celtics game. I so wish I was able to go to the game. I love watching basketball.

Tomorrow morning I am skating at 8:15 to practice my program, "Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy." It is a very fun program but probably the most difficult program I have ever done. I am up for the challenge though!

Off to do homework.....